Honey Lemon Ginger Applesauce.. Spice and everything nice.
So, despite things going on lately, I felt a little like doing something I haven't done in a while..
APPLESAUCE!
I've always been a fan of unsweetened applesauce mostly, and I kinda over did the cinnamon applesauce when I was younger. I love making my own applesauce at home, because it is insanely easy, I know exactly what is going into it, annnnd, I can make it as chunky as I want ;)
3lbs of your apple of choice*, peeled, cored, and diced**
1 inch chunk of fresh ginger root
Juice and Zest of 1/2 lemon
1-2 Tablespoons of your favorite honey
16 oz of water ***
Optional: Nutmeg? Cinnamon? Vanilla?
Add the Lemon juice, apples, zest, and 1/2 of the water to a pan on medium heat, Stir every few minutes to make sure apples are heating evenly
Add the chunk of ginger, honey, and the remaining water, and stir
Turn the heat down to low, and let cook thoroughly until all of the apples are well softened, and the consistency is to your liking.
Remove the ginger before mashing, you can add it back in to steep while storing
Puree or mash the applesauce as much or as little as you'd like. I use a masher by hand, so my sauce is still nice and lumpy
Serve hot, or chilled! It's lovely either way!
Monday, February 18, 2019
Friday, September 28, 2018
To my Dearest little one
Tonight, while grocery shopping, I received a phone call from my Doctor with test results from a biopsy that I had to have done less than 48 hours ago. They said it would take 7-10 days min for results.. When they call that soon, it's usually not good news, and it was not good news tonight.
She said, "Hello, we have your test results. It's very important we speak immediately.. Where are you?" ( I knew that was just confirming the bad vibes) I told her, and swiftly went in search of a place to sit down. She told me my test results came back extremely abnormal.. There was something called (Complex Hyperplasia with Atypia) and (Endometrial Adenocarcinoma) . Now I'm being sent to an Oncologist and they are to decide if I should have a full Hysterectomy. I fear, my love, it seems as if it's almost guaranteed that I will need a hysterectomy. The doctor said it was most likely due to the extent of things.
My Dearest little one, How I've loved you so. I've taken so many steps, small and large as I can, as I've grown.. I wanted you to have the best life possible with the most loving family. As I grew, I found various things I had collected, mentally, physically or emotionally... for you. I've got coins and things from my travels to Norway. A few heirlooms from family, they didn't always see the importance in them, but I did. Books I was saving for the days I could read to you... My father had a few different very small currencies from various countries. When I was little I always found them fascinating, I thought you might too. My mother and my father loved to read, but my mom was just addicted to books. She spent most of her nights after work and bus rides to and from every day for years and years reading everything she could get her hands on. We used to trade books, long ago. Was a fun feeling, I hoped to have that with you. I've collected books from various small town libraries, one or two hundred years old. Examining the difference in writing, and voice is so cool, at least to me.. Even if you'd have laughed at me as I bored you to death over it would have been perfect. Oh and the MUSIC! My goodness we have/had so much to explore. I longed for the day we'd dance barefoot on the carpet together, giggling and laughing. You will never know it now but I LOVE to cook and bake. I always wanted to teach you and share recipes with you. Our family this turn around has been stubborn. Much has only been passed down by word of mouth and teaching in person. Rarely written.
There is so much more to be said to you, my darling, and I'm sorry. I fear I will not get the chance to share these things with you this lifetime around. I have a few last things to say, before I end this particular note.
Love is real, no matter what they say, and no matter what you see. When it hits you, you will know, and don't ever give up on that fairy tale idea of it. It won't always be perfect, but you can have that sweep you off of your feet & take your breath away love. Don't ever give up on your dreams, even if they may seem silly. No matter how small or large, you'll be surprised what you can accomplish. Don't allow others to dull your idea of life, love, and the way things should or could be. It's the ones that "stick to their guns" that prove to the others there's more than one way.
It's still just a little too soon to say but I worry that I if I didn't write this, I'd never get it out of my head and it would drive me mad. I still have hope to meet you this time around, even though chances are slim. Just know I love you, and always will
-SM
She said, "Hello, we have your test results. It's very important we speak immediately.. Where are you?" ( I knew that was just confirming the bad vibes) I told her, and swiftly went in search of a place to sit down. She told me my test results came back extremely abnormal.. There was something called (Complex Hyperplasia with Atypia) and (Endometrial Adenocarcinoma) . Now I'm being sent to an Oncologist and they are to decide if I should have a full Hysterectomy. I fear, my love, it seems as if it's almost guaranteed that I will need a hysterectomy. The doctor said it was most likely due to the extent of things.
My Dearest little one, How I've loved you so. I've taken so many steps, small and large as I can, as I've grown.. I wanted you to have the best life possible with the most loving family. As I grew, I found various things I had collected, mentally, physically or emotionally... for you. I've got coins and things from my travels to Norway. A few heirlooms from family, they didn't always see the importance in them, but I did. Books I was saving for the days I could read to you... My father had a few different very small currencies from various countries. When I was little I always found them fascinating, I thought you might too. My mother and my father loved to read, but my mom was just addicted to books. She spent most of her nights after work and bus rides to and from every day for years and years reading everything she could get her hands on. We used to trade books, long ago. Was a fun feeling, I hoped to have that with you. I've collected books from various small town libraries, one or two hundred years old. Examining the difference in writing, and voice is so cool, at least to me.. Even if you'd have laughed at me as I bored you to death over it would have been perfect. Oh and the MUSIC! My goodness we have/had so much to explore. I longed for the day we'd dance barefoot on the carpet together, giggling and laughing. You will never know it now but I LOVE to cook and bake. I always wanted to teach you and share recipes with you. Our family this turn around has been stubborn. Much has only been passed down by word of mouth and teaching in person. Rarely written.
There is so much more to be said to you, my darling, and I'm sorry. I fear I will not get the chance to share these things with you this lifetime around. I have a few last things to say, before I end this particular note.
Love is real, no matter what they say, and no matter what you see. When it hits you, you will know, and don't ever give up on that fairy tale idea of it. It won't always be perfect, but you can have that sweep you off of your feet & take your breath away love. Don't ever give up on your dreams, even if they may seem silly. No matter how small or large, you'll be surprised what you can accomplish. Don't allow others to dull your idea of life, love, and the way things should or could be. It's the ones that "stick to their guns" that prove to the others there's more than one way.
It's still just a little too soon to say but I worry that I if I didn't write this, I'd never get it out of my head and it would drive me mad. I still have hope to meet you this time around, even though chances are slim. Just know I love you, and always will
-SM
Wednesday, June 20, 2018
So, Canada Oh Canada
Scrolling through Social Media this morning, I see an article Canada= 2nd Nation to Legalize Marijuana. It's CNN. Interesting how I've come to like CNN more so lately. The ones who will likely be coming here first, and seeing my ramblings, will already know this but... A little bit about me:
I have a brain tumor on my pituitary gland, caused my an accident. Because of this, and my pituitary gland not functioning properly, I've got a slew of other negative health conditions and issues since. Severe Chronic Pain is probably the one that makes life miserable every day my eyes are open.ha.ha.
I live in Wisconsin currently, and thank the gods, we just legalized CBD and it can be sold on the shelves. Anyone else live here or interested in looking this is my favorite spot, for a million reasons....but... its great Fresh Thyme Market and my personal recommendation, for other Chronic Pain sufferers, or anxiety, ect is Charlotte's Web. They sell the Chocolate Mint oil which is quite delicious, and Olive oil, however they just got Capsules in near me as well. They go up to Every Day Plus, which will do you very well, however I'd like to try their stronger version, as I think there's the potential that it might actually completely take the pain away. Which... Really astounds me, as the past few years I've not thought I'd ever say that.
If you haven't noticed this post isn't going the Recreational way, although I do love the occasional tolk. Growing up, typical teenager, ect, Most of us were getting high, or at least experimented with smoking pot. (dear god those people that say "using weed" or "doing pot" kill me) When I got older, as we all do, careers, jobs, life, family, it kinda dies out. It's not usually "I'm an adult and I have a problem with it" It's usually far more along the lines of life getting in the way, career paths that don't align with it, and things of that nature. For me, I got too busy, and I went on a cleanse of everything for a while including alcohol. I was attempting to reach a peak clean system, and as cost free as possible. (Unless your growing, over here, that shit is expensive)
Fast forward a couple years to Accident. Boom. Severe Chronic pain. Seeing doctors left and right. Lost my Job. Hospital every other week if not more. All they could do to help the pain and give me some sort of quality of life was opiates. (Well I had been down that route before and it wasn't pretty) Unfortunately I had no other options. So Throw me into Pain management, which allowed me to go back to some light part time work, but that sure wasn't paying the bills. Month after month, after month go by. I find myself having to take them more and more, and they were not having the same relief. At all. The more I took, and the higher they upped the dose, the more side effects I got. And I knew it had to stop when I started having withdrawals. My personality and mood had changed. I had the shortest fuse, and less than a hair pin trigger, and the pain was still there, still constant, and seemed to be worsening. (It's a thing, and most doctors know about it Look here) Unfortunately for people with Chronic pain we have little options. I just got so upset, and so disgusted, and told the Doctor, (Who was really nice and just trying to help) that I wanted off. So she was going to put together a plan to slowly ween me off. I said Fuck that. Cold turkey. I had been on them a year and a half. Wasn't pretty, but somehow the worst of it was gone in 2 weeks. (I'm not a DR, I do not recommend this at all)
Although I didn't really smoke anymore, I had been closely following the rise of CBD, and all of the good it had done for people. I've always been a supporter of at the very least legalization of Medical Marijuana. I mean c'mon REALLY- MARINOL has been out for YEARS. See. So the idea of removing the psychoactive chemical, THC, and using CBD as a medicine, or daily supplement. Why the hell not? (Different Rant, Different Day) So, here I go, back then it was still Illegal here in WI, and I'm on the website for Charlottes web, like C'mon last ditch effort. Order. Comes like anything else. And it Worked like a god send. I couldn't believe it. I still had pain, but Oh my god. I slept better. I woke up with more energy, my pain was more manageable, I could think clearer. And If I had a panic attack, I'd dose. It worked faster than Xanax or Ativan. And no ill side effects.
So, going back to how this started. Thank you Canada, for being on the fore front of Completely legal Marijuana. And America??? Don't be so greedy. We know you have dark secrets, and former drug ties. Give up the Ghost. People like myself, and much worse across the board can use this medicine. And also, recreationally speaking... C'mon ALCOHOL. REALLY. I'm giving you that "I'm disappointed in you" look right now. Legalize it. Tax it. Nuff Said.
Ta Ta for now.
-SM
I have a brain tumor on my pituitary gland, caused my an accident. Because of this, and my pituitary gland not functioning properly, I've got a slew of other negative health conditions and issues since. Severe Chronic Pain is probably the one that makes life miserable every day my eyes are open.ha.ha.
I live in Wisconsin currently, and thank the gods, we just legalized CBD and it can be sold on the shelves. Anyone else live here or interested in looking this is my favorite spot, for a million reasons....but... its great Fresh Thyme Market and my personal recommendation, for other Chronic Pain sufferers, or anxiety, ect is Charlotte's Web. They sell the Chocolate Mint oil which is quite delicious, and Olive oil, however they just got Capsules in near me as well. They go up to Every Day Plus, which will do you very well, however I'd like to try their stronger version, as I think there's the potential that it might actually completely take the pain away. Which... Really astounds me, as the past few years I've not thought I'd ever say that.
If you haven't noticed this post isn't going the Recreational way, although I do love the occasional tolk. Growing up, typical teenager, ect, Most of us were getting high, or at least experimented with smoking pot. (dear god those people that say "using weed" or "doing pot" kill me) When I got older, as we all do, careers, jobs, life, family, it kinda dies out. It's not usually "I'm an adult and I have a problem with it" It's usually far more along the lines of life getting in the way, career paths that don't align with it, and things of that nature. For me, I got too busy, and I went on a cleanse of everything for a while including alcohol. I was attempting to reach a peak clean system, and as cost free as possible. (Unless your growing, over here, that shit is expensive)
Fast forward a couple years to Accident. Boom. Severe Chronic pain. Seeing doctors left and right. Lost my Job. Hospital every other week if not more. All they could do to help the pain and give me some sort of quality of life was opiates. (Well I had been down that route before and it wasn't pretty) Unfortunately I had no other options. So Throw me into Pain management, which allowed me to go back to some light part time work, but that sure wasn't paying the bills. Month after month, after month go by. I find myself having to take them more and more, and they were not having the same relief. At all. The more I took, and the higher they upped the dose, the more side effects I got. And I knew it had to stop when I started having withdrawals. My personality and mood had changed. I had the shortest fuse, and less than a hair pin trigger, and the pain was still there, still constant, and seemed to be worsening. (It's a thing, and most doctors know about it Look here) Unfortunately for people with Chronic pain we have little options. I just got so upset, and so disgusted, and told the Doctor, (Who was really nice and just trying to help) that I wanted off. So she was going to put together a plan to slowly ween me off. I said Fuck that. Cold turkey. I had been on them a year and a half. Wasn't pretty, but somehow the worst of it was gone in 2 weeks. (I'm not a DR, I do not recommend this at all)
Although I didn't really smoke anymore, I had been closely following the rise of CBD, and all of the good it had done for people. I've always been a supporter of at the very least legalization of Medical Marijuana. I mean c'mon REALLY- MARINOL has been out for YEARS. See. So the idea of removing the psychoactive chemical, THC, and using CBD as a medicine, or daily supplement. Why the hell not? (Different Rant, Different Day) So, here I go, back then it was still Illegal here in WI, and I'm on the website for Charlottes web, like C'mon last ditch effort. Order. Comes like anything else. And it Worked like a god send. I couldn't believe it. I still had pain, but Oh my god. I slept better. I woke up with more energy, my pain was more manageable, I could think clearer. And If I had a panic attack, I'd dose. It worked faster than Xanax or Ativan. And no ill side effects.
So, going back to how this started. Thank you Canada, for being on the fore front of Completely legal Marijuana. And America??? Don't be so greedy. We know you have dark secrets, and former drug ties. Give up the Ghost. People like myself, and much worse across the board can use this medicine. And also, recreationally speaking... C'mon ALCOHOL. REALLY. I'm giving you that "I'm disappointed in you" look right now. Legalize it. Tax it. Nuff Said.
Ta Ta for now.
-SM
It's been a while
This is going to be a multipurpose Blog, covering a variety of topics. I'll be cooking and sharing recipes, rambling, and there's also probably going to be a health theme in here. Politics, There could also be political themes.
So, WARNING: This could contain healthy material. It could also be controversial. But it's my Blog... So... If you're not OK with that, Don't go further :p
-SM
So, WARNING: This could contain healthy material. It could also be controversial. But it's my Blog... So... If you're not OK with that, Don't go further :p
-SM
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